Psychology

So I was in a bad mood for most of the day since my I/O psych class...until abou 4:35.

My I/O professor gave us a little suprise :) A ten page group paper...not listed in the syllabus (or so we all thought). I remembered her saying "paper" earlier last week and I thought...O she must have her classes messed up.

I'm pretty sure that she's a first time teacher. She's a fourth year grad student. She gets nervous when she's in front of the class speaking...I know because she does exactly what I do: hold my breath while trying to speak so I have to gasp for air, shaky voice, and standing behind the podium the entire time instead of walking around the room. And she speaks with a monotone most of the time. So, part of me feels a little sorry for her.

But the other part...

Everyone was pissed when she announced this. One girl that sat behind me said "Are there going to be any more surpise papers that we should know about?".

To which she responded "Actually it's in your syllabus, under class exercises". Well, dang that's clear ain't it. Clear as mud.

To me, the purpose of a syllabus is to let the student be able to judge for him or herself if they want to take the class, if they think the subject sounds interesting, if the course load is too much or just right, etc. This was not clear, and I feel like it was unfair to the students in my class.

So, I had had enough. She's also graded an exercise wrong. And the exercises that she hands out, she introduces the concepts in the same class (not in much detail I might add) and expects us to be able to answer the questions correctly. She assigns readings, but lectures on things that are in assigned readings for the next class. It's all so confusing! Which leads to stress!

So before my viola lesson today I went to go in for a grad check and at the same time I wanted to see if I could make my class a pass/fail class (deadline tomorrow). So the grad check is fine, I'll graduate in May. The lady was so sweet. I mentioned that I was having some problems with my I/O professor and she said "O, uh oh, yea I've heard some things about her" (!!!).

Apparently, I wasn't the only one upset by the surprise 10 page paper. She told me at first that I wouldn't be able to take it pass/fail or else I wouldn't be able to graduate! That it had to be graded. I was about to cry. This teacher makes me nervous.

She told me that she thought that she saw a final try and to come back after my lesson. So I did.

GOOD NEWS! I can take it pass/fail, and I get to keep my specialization (this had been called into question) and I get to keep my minor (also called into question) and I get to graduate in May! So hip hip horray! They simply forgot that I had previously been approved for another class to count for my specialization so everything works out.

And, a project that was due tomorrow got postponed because of the weather, also very very good news!

So, now I'm going to go watch Private Practice and work on a mini-assignment. Good night.

Leave the crap in the past!

So I had only one class today because of the weather. My 11 o'clock Human Resource Management Class.

I thought that last year's negotiations class was behind me. Frankly, I'm soooo sick of talking about it. I hated that diplomacy game! I've tried to move on and to be friends to my foes from last semester because most of them are in my 11 o'clock class...and I thought we had.

Well, today as class was ending AJ, Ivana and JB come up to me, blocking everyone else from leaving from their aisle, and asked me what grade I made in negotiations.

First of all, it's none of their business what grade I made! I wasn't going to answer. I had already told Lizzie, I think, because she's my friend and it really didn't matter at the time (she was on Russia's team just so you know and they screwed us over). I knew that she would ask me, I'd tell her, I'd ask her, she'd tell me, and we'd move on. Which we did. It was great haha.

So, anyway. I just sat there looking at JB, AJ and Ivana thinking to myself that I wasn't going to answer. AJ says "Come on Kelsy, don't be sneaky. Tell us what grade you made!!" when I hestitated.

Because there were people waiting and because I wanted to leave so that I could get home before the roads started to ice, I was about to tell him. But, I said "What did you make AJ?" thinking that that might make him stop. But no, he says, JB says and Ivana says "I made an A".

I said, "Fine, ok, I made an A also".

To which AJ, Ivana and JB get angry saying "WHAT??? How could you have gotten an A?"

I said "I wrote 150 pages for that class!!" I F*CKIN deserved an A! Ok, I really did. Especially with all the crap they put everyone through!!

AJ says "O that's bull crap! You snake! You're so sneaky! Our journal had pictures..."

Ivana seconds him and says "Yea ours had pictures and profiles..."

JB seconds AJ and Ivana also saying "You snake, you snake!" And it continues on for a few seconds. They finally left and I said under my breath "I hate that they still bring up that crap!"

Emily said "Why did they just ask you your grade?".

OOOOO I'm so pissed. I am now reminded why I kept my distance this semester. Yes, I've been friendly, but I've also been trying to ignore them unless necessary to talk to them.

What assholes! What complete assholes! Grrrrrr!

My own professor, I guess could see that I was getting agitated (apparently I have a very good "don't mess with me"/"go to hell" look haha...and I was probably turning red from my bp going up) asked me basically what was up. She said "Kelsy who's your negotiations professor?".

Diego and Raven were also in the room still. Diego and I told her "Professor Wolfe". So she said "So...what's up with the class?". Diego, Raven and I told her that it was interesting, that the people started getting emotional. Diego said "yea, the class participation was just..." as he motioned his hands clawing towards each other.

I said "yea, people were getting angry...but the important thing is that it was last semester! The class is over and I wish they'd stop bringing i up".

She said "Yea, I understand". Raven even looked like she was going to get angry all over again.

It was last semester. It was last semester. It was last semester!!!!! Get over it! Get over it Kelsy. I got an A! And an A is what I deserved.

Facebook can be both a good and Bad thing

So Haley is part of a group named "I bet I can find 500,000 Christian's on Facebook". So I started reading the wall of comments just because I was curious...and I'm avoiding homework haha. This is going to be a long post, so stick with me! :)

There's a man on there who claims to be an athiest and writes several things on the wall. Here's a little of what has been said, in the order that has been stated: (Of course I've edited out a few people)

"religion is gay and fake"..."hahaha I remember when I wrote a story an a bunch of people believed me it was real". Ok, yes a little rude. Definitely going to spur on conversation don't you think?

Here's how some people have responded "We all need to pray for __ _____. He is here to make fun of God's children and that is a dangerous position to be in. May the Holy Spirit reach him before it's too late". And another writes "first off, religion is not gay and is most certainly not fake, that is if you believe in the one true religion...the religion about Jesus Christ, how he created us and died for us and rose again so that we could have eternal life! i am a christian and i beleive that Jesus Christ is our Savior and that if we beleieve in him we will not perish but have everlasting life...also i mean honestly, go outside look at the amazing things God has done, the sky, the trees, the animals, how beautiful it all is and tell me this happened by chance, that it was all made out of nothing....you cant becuase there was a Creator, God".

To which this man responds "i didnt ask jesus to die for my sins lol if he came up and asked me id be like nah its fine you dont have to. plus im pretty sure science proves evolution is the cause of all 'gods beautiful things'". "cuz theres so much truth of god and jesus, other than a book that was rewritten a bunch of times and usually when that happens stuff gets blow out of prortion". "Also if god and jesus existed then why do little kids die young, why do animals get abused, why to people molest children. if these cartoon characters were real they stop all of this from happening right. btw when was the last time you saw jesus, wait when was the last time anyone saw jesus wasnt it like 2000 years ago or something. ".

He's asking questions that the unchurched would undoubtedly ask! Questions that "Christians" ask as well!

So how do people respond to these comments:

"The power of christ compels you Maxwell King!" and "To Maxwel King: Why don't you ask Him all of your questions when you stand before Him. (Hebrews 9:27 - "And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment.")Every word in this old book that has been re-written so many times has been proven many times over. I challenge you to read it and dis-prove anything in it. Maybe, just maybe, you'll discover the TRUTH. The Good News is that Jesus loves you in spite of your arrogance and ignorance. (Romans 5:8 - But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.) May God bless you and reveal Himself to you." and "ok first off, when God created us he created us special, unlike any other living thing on this planet, HE gave us something, its called FREE WILL. HE didnt just make us like robots and make us love HIM...HE gave us the choice to either accept Him as your one and only personal Savior or to reject him. Its a very controversial thing to why all these bad things happen, but its because God gave the people FREE WILL and they use it to choose to sin and do bad its not that God doesnt love us, its because HE wants us to find and love HIM because we want too...p.s. science cannot prove evolutionDO YOU THINK IT JUST HAPPENED BY CHANCE THAT THE EARTH IS THE ONLY PLANET WITH AN ATMOSPHERE WITH OXYGEN AND WATER?DO YOU THINK BY CHANCE THAT THE EARTH IS PERFECTLY PLACED SO THAT WE ARE NOT TOO CLOSE TO THE SUN TO BE BURNED AND NOT TOO FAR AWAY SO THAT WE WOULD FREEZE, JUST THINK IF WE WERE AN INCH ONE WAY OR THE OTHER!DO YOU THINK THE COMPLEX HUMAN DESIGN WAS CREATED OUTA POND SCUM?"

To which this man responds "Well im going to hell anyway i dont care, thats if the idea of hell is real another crazy fanatical assumption. Hell is better ill know more people there im not gonna let some ''pretend man in the sky'' or some ''guy from 2000 years ago who was a normal person and preached to people to follow him'' control my life. Isnt that what charles manson tried to do to. Im just throwing my opinion out there, to maybe get proven wrong. Im sure ill remain a stone cold atheist tho. Science has more prove then relgion. So at least my sundays are free. "

Notice how he says "I'm just throwing my opinion out there, to maybe get proven wrong". So I think there's a reason why he keeps coming back to this site. Don't you?

Instead of showing this man love and acceptance one lady, who I've already quoted many times above as well as others responds by saying "it is not better and i think we all know that, you have no real proof to back up your belief in atheism! Let me put it this way, remember when i said FREE WILL? well you control whether you believe in God or not, he has control over your life whether you choose to follow Him or not. again science does not have more proof then religion! i think you need to read one of the biggest proofs of them all the BIBLE! God has prophesied many things in that "book" including the RAPTURE, everyone will stand before God. And everything phrophesied in the Bible has and will happen" and "well all I'm saying is how can you believe in something that contradicts itself like the belief in evolution and atheism? God has given us some of the most evident evidence that He is our Almighty Creator ".

I feel very sad for this man. He comes on to the site, I believe, in search of either being disproved or in search of proving that christians really are mean, hypocritical people that will judge you on the spot. Unfortunately, I think he found the latter on this particular site. And, to make a comment on the lady that rails against him every step of the way, as if he needs to be pushed into believing, as if it's her job to convert him (instead of the Holy Spirit's), as if she needs to defend God, talks about the "RAPTURE" being included in the bible. Well, yes, while it may allude to that -- there is no word "rapture" mentioned. Please, correct me if I'm wrong! I definitely don't read the bible as much as I should....

I guess this just hits a nerve. I hate reading about things like this on social sites, where everyone can read it. If I really do some soul searching, I guess I go to these sites to be disproved as well. I want to go on to a site and see christians responding with love and acceptance instead of -- well, hate. I just think the approach is wrong. I should just know better than to read through the walls. Of course, there were some people who did respond in that way! But, only a distinct few.

Anyway, I REALLY need to get back to my homework haha. :) What's your opinion?

Economy

This economy is starting to scare me. My mom had three or four co-workers get laid off this past week. One was on her team and was previously on maternity leave. One was a friend that had worked for IBM for 26 years! And one was a man that she worked closely with, although not on the same team. She was heartbroken for her friends, and scared at the same time that she might lose her own job. It's scary!

I know that Boeing is hiring, however I'm scared that if I quit school and take a job with them (assuming I'd even get offered the job) that I might lose it later and then would either have to search for a new job without insurance (because I'm covered now as long as I'm in school, but I wouldn't be if I stopped my education and took a job), or go back to school and try to find work to support myself. Plus, Boeing is hiring mostly in the northwest and southwest. Not really in Oklahoma. Which I previously would've been ecstatic for! I'd love to live in Seattle or San Diego! But now, what if I took a job over there and then got laid off...what then? Come home? Or try to make it alone over there? And then, do I even want to work for Boeing? Is that the career field I want? Or should I stay in school and try to figure out what to do? So many stinkin' questions!

I guess it's good that at least someone is hiring. My dad told me that Fortune has it's 2009 list of top 10 companies to work for, and only three of them are hiring!

Definitely makes me want to just stay in school until this recession passes.

Side note -- What do you all think about global warming? My mom and dad had this little discussion in the car last night. My dad thinks it's hilarious bull-crap and that it's either global cooling/warming...that it changes everyday. His premise is that it's cyclical (which there are patterns that occur over time, I'll give him that). My mom says that it shouldn't matter if it's global warming/cooling/frosting or whatever. It says in Genesis that we are stewards of the earth. That we were left in charge to take care of it. I have to agree with her. But then there are other issues such as rising fuel costs, additional taxes, etc. that my dad says could be a burden when there are other things to worry about. So...anyway...enough of me rambling. What's your opinion?

Also, I'm soooo happy that I have found two speakers for my Management Honor Society this semester! A lady manager from Baker Hughes Centrilift and Aaron, the airport manager in Claremore! Yay! And the girl from Baker Hughes said that her company may be willing to sponsor lunch! Hallelujah -- because we're broke! There's a mix-up in the business office that still hasn't been taken care of and it's January!

Random Thoughts

This has been the second weekend in a row that the message/theme for the week at Agora corresponds with one of the church signs by my neighborhood. It's kinda weird -- yes, God, I'm listening now!

I will start the second week of the last semester at TU on Tuesday. The beginning of the end for me. It's sad. I just bought a book last night at borders called Now What? The young person's guide to choosing the perfect career by Nicholas Lore. He also wrote The Pathfinder for older adults who want to find the perfect career after being out in the work field for anyone who may be interested. I'm only a chapter in, but it sounds promising! He describes what the average person wants in life and what we should want from our jobs. He also points out that only 30% of people like their work based on a gallup poll, I believe, and that most people do not go into the field in which they have their degree from college. So, he says it's really important to discover a career option that will fit with your personality and make you happy. After all, you'll spend more time working than doing anything else! It's true!

Well, I'm out of things to say. I'm going to go enjoy this beautiful day! :D

July 20th

Just out of curious I typed in July 20 into google's search engine. I went to the wikipedia site that it brought up and here is a list of people that were born on July 20th and who died on July 20th as well as some interesting facts. (July 20th is my bday if you didn't know)

• Ford motor company shipped the first car
• congresswoman Alice Mary Robinson became the first female to preside over the US house of representatives
• FDR wins the election for the fourth time
• Truman issues a military draft during peace
• Special olympics were founded
• Apollo 11 successfully lands the first man on the moon
• Viking 1 lands on mars
• Hank Aaron hits his 755th home run
• Vanessa Williams is ousted as Miss America
• London stock exchange goes public
• Canada legalizes same sex marriage
• Alexander the Great born
• Cormac McCarthy born
• Carlos Santana born
• Josh Holloway born
• Sandra Oh born
• Gisele Bundchen born
• Vitamin C born
• Elliot yamin born
• Bruce Lee died
• Gregory Hill died
• 2 popes died
• Tammy Faye Bakker died

And that's it, well, what I found to be interesting.

Breath

I haven't watched this video in a long time, probably a year. I was planning on watching it every morning to remind me to breath. I still want to get a tattoo that says breath.

I'm sure most of you have seen it at Agora. It's one of those videos that I'm still talking about, that I still get emotional over. It's amazing.

Was supposed to post this Tuesday

So, I'm sittin here at US Cellular...I'm working today for a few hours while my boss, Rachel, goes to a managers' meeting. I haven't actually worked here since October -- so I was super nervous that I would not remember vital things.

So far, only one customer has been in. But, crap...I forgot to press one stinkin' button and I spent about 30 minutes on the phone with customer service. And then I had to do a deposit on the same poor guy and that took a while of me looking for the sheet to jog my memory on how to start. I knew that if I started I could finish it, which I did.

He eventually had to leave because it was taking me so long. Left in a huff. O well...it happens right? Haha. He has to come back anyway.

So I've been thinking about what Justin was talking about last Saturday evening. About the one thing. Pretty "coincidental" that that was the subject after I've been thinking about it for so long!
Before coming in that night and watching the video Shells by Rob Bell I had never looked at being busy that way. In fact, there was a church sign by my house that said "If you're too busy to pray, you're too busy". I thought, and still think, that they have it wrong -- that you don't have to be in a "sacred" moment, because all moments are sacred. You don't have to be down on your knees in prayer - you can talk to God in the shower, in the car, watching TV, etc.

But, anyway, I always thought that being busy had two sides, or I could see two sides. On one hand it's like the Aerosmith song, "I don't want to miss a thing!" You have to get out there and do things to be fulfilled and happy! Achieve achieve achieve! Then on the other hand, God says to be still and quiet and know that he is God. So, it seems to me like there should be both, a balance! Like so many things in life.

But, after going in and watching how we can hold onto the shell fragments that prevent us from reaching something better like the starfish, it opened my eyes. I still can see my last viewpoint. But, now I guess I can see that I shouldn't be saying "yes" for the wrong reasons. Sometimes, I need to be able to tell someone, even if it's for a good cause, "no".

For me, it's the fact that I need to slow down and not take on so much, which is what happened in October when I quit US Cellular. I was in two important clubs, one of which I was helping to run. I had 17 hours at TU in a crazy schedule and I felt like I was giving all of my free time to the store on my time off from school. I think I've already relayed how I had a little mini-breakdown because I missed a Mortar Board meeting. So, I've come to the realization that it's ok to say no (which is going to be hard). I like to help people to the point of my own detriment. I can still help, but it should be different.

As school starts back up again, it's something that I need to keep in mind while I search for my one thing.

Monsters

I took this test from Monster.com and this is what it said:

I am an INFP:

Life as an INFP (Intravert, Intuitive, Feeler, Perceiver) -

People of this type tend to be quiet, reserved and kind; deeply passionate, sensitive and easily hurt; loving and dedicated to those close to them; creative, original and imaginative; curious and flexible in small matters; nonconforming.

The most important thing to INFPs are their deeply held beliefs and living in harmony with their values.

Great careers for INFPs
Here are just a few popular and often satisfying careers for people whose Personality Type is INFP:
Psychologist
Human resources professional
Physical therapist
Researcher
Translator / interpreter
Legal mediator
Employee development specialist
College professor: humanities
Massage therapist
Social worker
Librarian
Fashion designer
Editor / art director

And then if you click on the link "Do what you are" and do the free personality test again it says:

Introvert, iNtuitive, Feeler, Perceiver (INFP)
INFPs represent between 4 and 5% of the U.S. population. (I'm special...haha j/k)

INFPs value inner harmony above all else. Sensitive, idealistic, and loyal, they have a strong sense of honor concerning their personal values and are often passionately committed to making sure their beliefs and actions are congruent. INFPs are also extremely perceptive about people. They value their uniqueness and typically seek unconventional ways of doing things. Sensitive and empathetic, INFPs tend to be exceptionally adept at reading between the lines. Although they demonstrate cool reserve on the outside, INFPs care deeply inside. They are compassionate, sympathetic, understanding and very sensitive to the feelings of others. They avoid conflict and are not interested in impressing or dominating others unless their values are at stake. INFPs seldom express the intensity of their feelings and often appear reticent and calm. However, once they know you, they are enthusiastic and warm. Feeling truly understood and respected for their unique perspective and strong values is important for many INFPs.

So what do you all think? Sound like me? I don't think that I necessarily do things unconventionally and, as my mom told me last night, it's not that I'm perceptive at reading between the lines as it is that I read into things. Ha.

What I find interesting is that I have looked into psychology and phyical therapy and I'm already specializing in human resources. Also I've always said my dream job would be an editor, why not an art director too. So what to do now...

I'm still going to go talk to the lady. I was looking into physical therapy last night for kicks and giggles and I'd only have to take about 21 more hours of prerequisites after I graduate. Hmmph. I still have no clue.

I threw my mom a surprise birthday party yesterday. She says that she had no idea - I don't know if I fully believe that :) But, the main point was to show her how much family and friends care for her. She was kinda depressed the night before her birthday saying that she's old now. I tried to cheer her up by saying "Just think mom, in a few hours you'll be a half a century old!" Surprisingly enough, I don't think it cheered her up, haha.

But, in the end, the surprise party had the very effect I knew would happen - she cried. She walked in and cried. HAHA I did it. Not the crying part, the "I'm so moved because of what you did for me" part. Success!

A couple of nights ago, I was watching Legends that Fall while looking at my options for either more schooling or work after I graduate/don't graduate in May. My mom was looking at what a masters in I/O psych would allow. I was looking at the psychology department at TU, the biology department, the masters programs in OU Tulsa, OU, OSU Tulsa and OSU. My mom said that if I wanted to get a masters in architecture I could, if I wanted to get a second degree in biology to do anesthesiology I could....she's basically leaving it all open and up to me. Which I greatly appreciate! I feel soooo blessed!

But, what I've recently discovered is that I need help deciding. So, I'm going to go see a life coach or someone that can ask me the questions that I need to be asked and help me to discover what it is that I would love doing as a career in the future.